The Number One Sunday Times bestseller'Her battle, viscerally told in this harrowing account, is one to be in awe of and might have you reconsidering your own appreciation of luck' Mail on SundayHow do you learn to live again when you've danced with death?Louise's road to having a baby was far from easy, suffering a heartbreaking miscarriage during her first pregnancy and being caught in a terrifying house fire in her second. But her troubles were far from over when she gave birth. During an emergency c-section, she had severe complications and fought for her life over a number of days, whilst her son was taken into NICU. This terrifying experience impacted on Louise's mental health in a way that completely changed her life, as she has battled to come to terms with what happened to her, whilst also becoming a mother.As Louise has rebuilt herself step by step, she has reflected back on her past - from her childhood and dynamics with her family, to her struggles with alcohol and toxic relationships, as well as the rollercoaster years of her time on Made in Chelsea. Louise's experience has changed the way she sees the world and redefined what's important to her. Although it has been a challenging journey, she is determined to come out more alive than ever. Louise's powerful story, told with raw honesty, shows the incredible human ability to overcome anything, no matter what life throws at you.